ontological centaur
i can't help but meditate 
running tongue 
along chips in my teeth 
till i get lie bumps 
tiny red aching things 
sores on the palate 
that you just gotta 
wait out, they say 
when i was younger 
i wanted to be a youth pastor 
now i sell wine for a living 
but none was ever water 
heard a story once a man 
killed a little grey wolf 
on accident skipping rocks 
across a frozen lake
grieved and gutted
refused to wear its pelt
paid penance with hypothermia 
in somewhere's tundra 
the idea of being 
is much better than being 
and that's just a universal constant, motherfucker 
i love my dad, pt. ii
slowly rolling down windows 
in the old volvo wagon 
the perfume of autumn country air 
lilacs and lavender and sheep shit 
the blinding brightness of sun 
cast out across the lake 
sneaking under the car’s visor 
blasting my forehead 
steaming with sweat
i cannot die, i say 
i will never die, i say 
aloud to no one 
fingerfucking the heavy rocks 
packed in my jacket's pockets
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C.T. McGaha is a writer from Charlotte, NC. He loves wine, pizza, and his pets. He used to like Sun Kil Moon a lot but he doesn’t as much now. 
