The residual anger of erotic dreams
This backyard sprayed and sprayed again. 
The cochineal has come back, ravenous 
in its slow moving ways. Not quite fixed,
this moment: the neighbor shooting a bb gun 
at a cardboard box. Propped, it will remain 
for weeks. I smell rotting meat and it fills me 
with alarm. It routes through, untraceable, 
feeling strangely like desire. Not the thing 
itself, just a likeness caught: the reflection 
of a window or the eye askance. But to be
clear, the meat is still unsettling, the smell 
a fine catalog of threads for pulling: an eye 
running, a salivary gland in excess, a thing 
we return to soft and in syllables. Calling a 
name when it needles the mind. 
Catalpa sphinx
mothlight mutualism
there is but one feeder 
                                                       and host a delicate balance 
they return
                         pupal sphinx 
                                     buried collar 
                                     round the old 
                                                 marks 
                                     cloistered thorax 
                                                 catalpa 
                                                                      sphinx 
                                                                                                                   resting spindling
                         feeding
feral spoiler 
        among leaves
                                 on a notion of two-wing                        delights
guaranteed
                                 midge
            streetlight exchange
            within
                                                                         disruption
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Brita Sauer graduated with an MFA from NMSU and is also a librarian. She has worked in libraries in New Mexico and is interested in the intersection of collection and ecology. She has work published or forthcoming on The Academy of American Poets poets.org site, Plant-Human Quarterly, The Listening Eye, Gone Lawn, and a short film shown at the Feminist Border Arts Film Festival.
